There is no method, only madness.
Sit down and breathe for a moment, it won't kill you. Hehe I haven't made one of these in a while. Lets see I'm Eric, I'm a pretty thick headed man, I have a problem with my life, but than again what teenager doesn't? I breath carbon dioxide and exhale oxygen. And everything I look at has to be trippy or spiritual. I always have this tendency to be very quiet until I finally decide to open up to you. Then I become an annoying asshole, but a good friend. I make stupid remarks, and I like to think to myself that no one is better than anyone, no matter how you make it out to be we're all still dying. I tend to be very secure about my sexuality, and I love joking around. its pretty much whats kept me afloat. I'm a very open minded person and I'll mostly try anything at least once. HURR HURR Original right? I warn you now if you try to get to know me theres a good chance you'll have to be patient. I have a job and quite a good life, and all is just... just so fucking wonderful right now.
Submerged in abyss, darkness fills my lungs as I breathe in the water that surrounds me. Reaching out desperately for something- anything! But at last nothing was to be found. Despair rises in the bottom as my gut, as I gain second wind to struggle from this… This pitless ocean.
Its cold… Why is it so cold? Why the hell is it so fucking cold?
Thoughts race through my head, as I can feel the void drag me in never the less towards its open mouth. Laughter fills my head as malefic visions flood in, memories of my worst nightmares haunt me as I continue to sink, drifting down as if an anchor is chained to my soul. Means of escape are futile as I gasp for air, but only catching this concoction of hydrogen and oxygen. Sight becomes blurry, but I’m not drowning. As death clasps me with its boney hands, I Recklessly toss Iand turn, trying to break free….
Suddenly small specs of light flash by me, as they rise above me; I’m mesmerized by feelings of joy. Overwhelmed by this spectrum of glimpsing hope I feel lighter, the chain breaks from my waist as I can feel myself being pushed to the surface. A smile flashes several times but its not my own- no no no, not my own; this picture dazzles my very being, shaking down to the core of my very life, this enchantress, this red haired temptress is all I see. As she pierces my soul with her watery oasis eyes, I’m drawn by this mirage, optical illusions all around me as lights flicker and dance.
I reach out with what strength I have left, as my feeling of unbelievable consumes me; only for a second as I see her reach back, her skin is softer than anyone could ever imagine. A small laugh escapes as she pulls me out, I can hear the null zone beneath me as it curses out in anger for its lose of prey. She pulls me to my feet as we stand on the surface of the relentless sea, we lock eyes; everything around us freezes; nothing matters anymore. I lean in quickly pressing my lips against hers as both moon and sun are in the sky, fighting over position for the show we put on. The Sun peaks over the horizon, stars fall, and the moon cracks, chaos fills this world so beautifully. As I hold her tight; the sun implodes creating a white hole as it devours everything in sight, I hold her hand, frightened, she looks at me and says nothing with her mouth, but with her mind.
It’ll be okay. Trust me. Followed by a smile.
I return the smirk, as she squeezes on my hand and we lunge into the worm hole. Only to awake to my alarm, and realize it was nothing more than a vivid… Destructive… Fathomless dream.
Got upped my dosage, 40 mgs now. Feels good man.
